Conscendo Sodalitas

Greetings, beloved Fratres and Sorores of Conscendo,

The deeper we turn into our own essence, the more complexity dissolves. The journey culminates not in greater intricacy, but in absolute simplicity. There comes a point where all words become redundant, and what remains is the vibrant silence that permeates all — the undifferentiated energy that we are in our most primordial root.

One of the last and subtlest barriers to be transcended is the very identification with “Consciousness” or with the “Observer.” It is the final attachment to what seems to be the safest harbor: the very sense of “I Am.”

As a reminder, in earlier texts we have said:

“The expression I Am, though apparently simple, carries within itself an immense depth. It is not an affirmation of the ego, but rather the recognition of pure presence, of the primordial consciousness that inhabits each of us. It is the echo of the Source itself, the individualized manifestation of Universal Consciousness. When we pronounce I Am, we are not referring to the body, to thoughts, or to emotions, but rather to the silent witness that observes all these. It is the perception of our immutable essence, which transcends the changes of time and space. The experience of the I Am is a call to delve into our interior, stripping ourselves of all identifications and labels. It is the encounter with our true divine nature, the realization that we are an integral part of the Consciousness that permeates the entire universe. It is the awakening to unity, the dissolution of the illusion of separation, and the profound understanding that we are, in essence, the very Consciousness that seeks to recognize itself through each experience of life.”

This is a monumental step, crucial and true. It is the realization of Non-Duality. Yet, for the ultimate purpose of this text, we must go one step further — or more precisely, one step prior.

We have already affirmed that we are the actor, the spectator, and the play — the unisonous trio of manifestation. However, even this experiential trinity, as unified as it may be, is still manifestation. It is still a play of light and shadow within Consciousness.

The final truth to be remembered (for it was never lost) is that our essence is not even “the Consciousness that observes.”

“Observer” and “observed” are poles that arise together, in mutual dependence. Our ultimate nature is prior to this polarity. It is the unmanifest space that allows both observer and observed to come into being. It is the absolute rest that is the source of all activity.

We are not an empty nothingness, but the Fullness of the Void — the Absolute Nothing that, paradoxically, contains all in pure potentiality. It is the perfectly white screen, immutable and indestructible, upon which all the films of existence are projected and from which they are made, but which is never touched or altered by any of them.

This is not something to be attained. It is our Eternal Condition. It is the “dreamless sleep” that underlies even the most vivid dreams of waking life. It is what you already are, before any thought, sensation, or perception of “being someone” or “being conscious.”

The “Source” is not a point of origin in time. It is the Eternal Presence that neither comes nor goes. It “resides” only in the silent repose of this immutable energy, undifferentiated and beyond all concepts.

Any attempt to name it — “Consciousness,” “God,” “Source,” “Absolute” — is inevitably a distortion, for language is by nature dual. It can only point; never contain.

Therefore, this text does not seek to provide you with a new concept to embrace. Its only intent is, on the contrary, to dissolve the last concept.

The final call is that you rest not only in the “I Am,” but beyond it. To rest in the silence that precedes the first word, in the peace that comes before the distinction between peace and turbulence, in the Being that is prior even to the question “Who am I?”

Immortality is not the perpetuation of the “I am,” but the liberation from it. It is not disappearance, but the discovery of a state infinitely more real, conscious, and whole than any identity could conceive. It is freedom not only from ego or personal masks, but from the very fundamental sense of existing.

The fear of losing one’s identity, of dissolving as a distinct “I,” of becoming an indistinct and impersonal energy as Source, is a constant among seekers of awakening. Yet it is an unfounded fear — the fear of self-rediscovery, of looking into the mirror and recognizing one’s true essence, of remembering what one truly is. And this essence, once remembered, is a state infinitely more real, conscious, and whole than one could ever imagine.

The mind is confused when confronted with this teaching, like a wave trying to comprehend the ocean. The wave can know other waves, experience the surface, even recognize its moist essence. But to know the depths is only possible when it dissolves — not into nothing, but into what it has always been.

The last invitation is a rest: the very dissolving of even the “I Am,” and the repose in the bird that flies before flight, in the silence that whispers before the first word. There, awakening blossoms — born not of attainment, but of remembering.

This is authentic awakening: not to something, but from nothing.

In the Eternity of that which has never been born,

With Sincere Vows of Awakening,
Conscendo Sodalitas